Online I go by the alias “Aesthemic”. Ever since around ’98 I have been on the web in some form or fashion. It wasn’t until around 2001 that I became absolutely obsessed with online culture and started to grasp what the Internet could become.
Hobbies
Growing up I was always incredibly self-conscious of my creative skills which often dissuaded me from trying. Despite this, I have found the inspiration in recent years to start leaning more into my creative side. Lately I have been diving a bit into digital art, music, and both technical and creative writing.
Gaming has always been a central point of my life. It started with Tetris on the Nintendo Gameboy and morphed into a fascination with rhythm games, dungeon crawlers, and a wide variety of different JRPGs. From Final Fantasy to Earthbound, I love to visit a variety of worlds.
Music has always been a big part of my life as well. In my younger years I had fallen in love with the drums and at points took steps to get into the creation of EDM. Recent years are having me analyze this to better understand what I want to get out of music creation as I start to dive into things.
Streaming is a relatively new hobby of mine. I am working on building an online community of like-minded people who want to build a positive community for those of us who have been guilted into believing we’re “not normal” just because we might be queer, neurodivergent, or otherwise unfitting of the established societal norms. I am a firm believer that people of all backgrounds, races, and cultures should be able to share a space. Love is a language all should be able to understand.
Personality
Over the past few years I have been going through a journey to better understand myself thanks to a loving family, some great friends, and a lot of help from some great people I work with. I have come to find out some solid things about myself such as being Demi-Sexual. Some time is also being spent determining my precise definition of neurodivergence as it has become abundantly clear I am much different from anyone in my family.
On stream most people will notice I sometimes struggle with my focus depending on my mood and what is going on in my life. I always try to bring a positive mood and vibe into the stream no matter what, but the flavor of that vibe changes based on what is going on around me. I am honest about myself to a fault and transparent when I probably shouldn’t be. The games that I play will showcase that.
When I meet people in the community I try to do my best to be respectful and thoughtful, but may sometimes fall short of that simply because my memory is also often tied to the level of stress I am feeling at a given time. Sometimes my job or real-life events have me being a bit too social in-person which can overwhelm me. In those times, I struggle to tie identities to my experiences in the short-term. However, it doesn’t take long to rectify that when I spend more time around people. I never forget the people who are there for me and the people that love to be around me.